Post natal depression is not uncommon
Sounds like you are sliping under a bit. You need a better package, is there a health visitor or someone you can book a chat with.
In the UK we have a charity called Mind who are really good with your sort of problem...hay you are on the net, maybe there's some info you can look up ...might tell you what to say to your doctor? one in 3 people suffer at some time in their lives , dont be ashamed.
Sounds to me like you need a break. Could he cope for a weekend while you go away with a girlfriend? To the sea for a good old shout into the wind and to throw some stones?
Don't feel guilty about this , you have a sitter and you work full time, so you are doing more than 2 jobs..oooh yes, 100% work 80% baby 50% house.actually probably 100%..so some "me" time is essential!!!
Do it for your family if you feel(wrongly) you don't deserve it for yourself.
Could a neighbour look in on him over a weekend? He must see you are suffering and a break would do you good. Don't go away together with the baby it will be hell . Can grandparents take her for a weekend..you need a chance to miss her. Maybe book a hotel room for 1 night just to start. If you take him with you... make sure you don't make another baby..just yet!)
Remember...this too will pass H
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