Weight gain

I'm feeling really fed up!

I was on Atkins before Xmas and managed to loose 2 stone.

I have put 1 stone 4 pounds of it back on. I just cant stop eating. I've always been the same with my weight up and down like a yo yo. To be honest though im fat more than thin for most of the time.

Im either on a diet or totally out of control with my eating. Why cant i find the happy medium in between ?

Sorry all just sounding off because i know i have to stop this distructive behaviour but to be honest . . . dont think i ever will.