Any advice?

Hi there.

This is the first time I`ve ever done anything like this, but for some reason I feel comfortable sharing my problems with people like me.
I`m not sure but I think I might be starting to develop Bulimia. I started making myself sick just before Christmas and it has escalated ever since, I`m doing it on average about 3 times a day now.
Everyday I say to myself I`m not going to binge today and I`ll be fine, but it never turns out like that and I don`t know why!!

I obsess over food 24 hours a day, I think about it all the time, I`m constantly counting calories, buying slimming books and joining dieting groups.
I constantly look to my older sister, who's so slim and has the most amazing figure, and think why can`t I look like that? I`ve always been the chubby one, my sister used to make fun of me when I was younger as did some people at school but I just kept my head down and would pretend that they were talking about someone else. I managed to loose a lot of weight when I was about 14 and actually thought I looked normal, then I went to uni and found that I put on about a stone. When I graduated I felt disgusting so I started to cut meals out, working in a pub made this really easy with the odd hours, no breaks and running about all the time. I managed to loose the weight, but I`ve just gone back to uni and I`m petrified that it happens all over again, as it seems that studying and eating go hand in hand with me.

Anyway now all I seem to do is go to uni, I don`t eat much during the day,then I come home and just gorge, then I feel disgusted with myself so I run off to the bathroom and bring it all back up.
I always thought that to have bulimia,or any eating disorder, that you had to be doing it for a certain length of time to actually have it, so for me I don`t think that it`s been going on for long enough to be called anything.

Well the reason for all this is I`m starting to get a bit concerned that I'm going to end up doing some serious damage to myself and disappointing the people around me, so I thinks it`s time that I stopped this and got some help.

So if any one out there can relate to what I`m going through and has any helpful info it would be much appreciated, sorry for rambling on but I felt like the whole story had to be told.

Thanks