Some insight

Hello everyone~
I'm new to this site and I think I may need some help. I have been a bulimic for nine years on and off. Recently my problem has escalated to the extreme where I am now at 108lbs at 5' 4". I know my weight isn't terrible but I just can't keep any food in me without feeling like I am the ungliest person in the world. I abuse laxatives constantly and diuretics, I understand all of this isn't healthy, but I just CAN'T quit.
Now it's interfering w/ my life: I spend half my day eating and binging, the other half feeling terrible for eating. The minute I gain a pound I spiral into an anxiety attack. Can anybody give me some insight? Or words of encouragment?

Thanks so much!

Doll

insight?

I have noticed your message for two days now and I am on this site for a different reason. I miscarried about 4 weeks ago and I needed some support and I have found it here with real mpeople that understand. I do however also have bulimia and I also have had it for many years(10) I feel like how you described most days and more so lately because of the lossof my baby. Becoming pregnant forced me o eat and kept it in and you become very hungry and I did. I ate more than I probably did in 6 months put together. It was hard tomface your demons in the face but I was trying to do the bast for my baby. Now I am left with this body and no baby. I am mortified and I dont know which way to go on one hand I struggle with my loss and the next I am devistated by my weight gain. I have again started to purge and be sick for maybe 3 or 4 times a day and I do it more because I can not control my feelings.

I am in the same place as you and I have been for a very long time. I never have been be to control or stop bulimia but I have better days over the 10 years.

I dont know if I can give you insight but I do understand and will talk more if you wish. You can PM me if you like. This site is helping me and I know there are not many people here I am if you wish.

Take care of yourself. XX