I'm becoming obsessed with being thin.....do i have an eating disorder?

hiya girls,

i never used to have any problems with my weight , in fact when i was in school i was always very thin with no curves and dreamed of putting on weight!....but i fell pregnant wen i was 18yrs old and went from a size 6 up to a size 12 (10st), even after the birth i wasnt botherd by my weight as i didnt feel big ....atleast it wasnt until i saw photos of myself...and started lookin at thin celebs in magazines and realised i was infact fat!....so i started a number of different crash diets and joined the gym and in the first year i didnt loose alot really i went from 10st to 9st 1lb.....at the time i felt thin (really dont no how tho)......then in the last year ive gone from 9st 1lb to 8st and im now a size 8........(my full stats now are 5ft5, 8st, size 8)........but im stil really unhappy with my body and weight i want to be smaller everyone tells me im thin and look great now but i hate my weight i stil feel fat! ....at the moment im drinkin lots of tea to get rid of hunger pangs....and eating as little as possible (probably under 1000cals a day) and excersizing regularly.....and everytime i eat something fattening i feel like it instantly goes to my thighs its horrible.....the weight obsession seem's to be taking over my life, i just want to b happy and not hav to worry about wot i eat!....i really dont know what to do!.....weight seems to be the only thing i think about and getting my breast enhanced which im doing this year......is anyone experiencing the same probs as me, and do i have and eating disorder? xxx

Hello

Hey - I dont know what you should do but I do know what you are going through, I was never especially bothered about what I ate & wasnt always checking my weight etc. I started going to the gym to get a bit fitter and I wasnt happy in my relationship so the gym became my escape.

I did loose some weight & toned up nicely but then I started thinking about what I ate and dieting!! I don't know why I did it as i didnt need to loose any weight - I would be hungrey but avoid eating unless it was a mealtime etc - i started binging on chocolate, then other banned foods like cakes/pastry/ice cream etc - I avoided putting on too much weight as i had a physical job and would exercise on top & lift weights for 3 or 4 hours a day but I couldn't keep this up - fast forward 2 years & despite trying to get help I'm worse than ever and have taken every diet pill known to man & in the last 10 weeks iv lost nearly 2 stone through using dnp - i know this is really not good for me and i want to stop but I cant stop

I'm sorry this is such a long ramble but I really want to encourage you to get help before it goes any further because the longer you leave it the harder it gets.

wishing you the very best of luck

Ellisa