Binge eating help & abuse of diet pills

Hello - I'm Elissa and I'm so scared as I'v been binge eating for the last 3 years - I don't purge but was exercising like crazy - I went up to 12 stone and was so miserable I wanted to kill myself but i couldnt stop!

I took every diet pill available but they didn't really help & then I came across DNP on a exercise site - I manages to get hold of some and have dropped 2 stone in under 2 months but now I cant stop taking it as i'm scared of putting the wweight back on! I have got myself into serious debt buying this stuff and I know its probally not good in the long term but it works & I can put up with the side effefts but just want to live a normal life!

I dont want to have to take crazy chemicals just so i can eat 9000 cals a day of junk and not get fat - at first i thought it was great but now im scared as im getting into debt.

Iv been to my gp lots of times but he just gives me anti depresants.

Any help would be much apreciated

thank you

Ellisa

Similar situation

Hey Elisa,
I've dealth with similar issues. I have a long story of struggle w/anorexia n especially bulimia, n hav also used DNP. Ive done a total of abt 3 cycles this past year... I stopped because the more i researched it in depth the more frightened i got. There were a few times wen the side effects were so bad i cldnt stop crying because i thought i would die. Ive told my doctor i took that but she had no idea wat it was- most dont. I keep freakin out about developpin some kind of cancer in the months comin. I actually ordered a whole kilo of it from a chemical company in china. You are definitly not goin to use it again rite? It really isnt worth it. Did u get a blood test to see if it has affected ur health in any way? My white blood cell was decreased for a while because of it, as well as my ACTH. You can send me a PV if u want. Im very knowledgeable when it comes to nutrition n im currently a psychologys student so if theres any advice ud like to ask for id be more then happy to help

Hi ellisa

I understand your problem !

Change your GP, because anti-depressants alone is not enough.
You probably need therapy, you need to talk to a professional, don't stay like that please.

I am looking for a therapy for myself in London.

Thankyou

Hello - I did change my doctor but they just don't seem to take it seriously! I saw a hypnotherapist for 10 months on a weekly basis but although I did feel more positive during & for a short period after the sesions it didnt help as i'm much worse now 18 months after i stopped - i stopped as i couldnt afford it anymore.

What sort of therapy are you looking for?

I have to do something but I cant find anything near to where I live or even that close that I havn't allready tried.

I just can't cope with the constant battle of food addiction! No one knows about this as im so ashamed - what is wrong with me that makes me spend hundreds of pound a month on diet pills just so i can eat 9000cal + a day of complete junk without getting too fat!?! I don't really even enjoy the eating anymore but can stop!

thankyou for your reply

Hello

I'm talking about CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy),
I found the National Centre for Eating Disorders and booked an assessment, it costs £40
If you want have a look
http://www.eating-disorders.org.uk/

They have a list of therapists, not just in London, but I don't know if they are good or not. If you had a referral from a GP, you could probably have a therapy for free, so change GP, or you have to pay !

9000 calories a day, you really need help ! Some GP are really bad, when he has finished his working day, he doesn't care about you and your suffering, its easier to give pills like that it feeds the pharmacy industry, so you have to help yourself and getting help from people like you.