No one to turn to , need a friend

hi my names sabrina 22.

long story short.

ran away from home age 17 with a guy of the net who 24. why? becus of my family, never felt loved, along with other reasons.
never returned home until 2 and ahalf years later. why did i go home? becus i was in an abusive relationship with that guy fell pregnant had amiscarage. i left that guy only to be raped by two guys on a night out that went wrong. so i went home to my parents. met another guy, thot he was the one so nice to me, south african, 1 and ahalf years together, found out hed cheated with numerous girls. then found someone else, moved away from parents within months i was living with him. nice guy, never did nething rong, he was night shift, i felt lonely, no friends, cheated on him. left him. got flatshare everything goes well with job, new this otherguy for 3 years he lived down england , went to meet him, had the best weekend of my life, it was like fate. but then i met someone else,so i stopped speakin to him, i regret not findin out how it would have been with the guy from england. . left everything behind, moved again with my new partner, hes turkish, so now my family disown me. i have no family no friends, no job atm bcus i hav an illness regarding my blood. going to turkey in 3 weeks to get married and have a honeymoon. hes the nicest guy ive ever met, gods honest truth, anything i want, and no matter how sad i get or angry i get, hes there for me. but becus i have no family or no friends and im not working, im all alone. ive put on weight, so i feel ungly and fat and i feel like my life is never going to be be how i want it. please i need someone to speak to

Someone to talk to ...

Hi sabrina,
Im new to this site but thought that you might still want advise or someone to talk to, so thought i'd reply anyway. . . . That's a long and very confusing story, i think you need to stop looking for love and happiness within somebody else, the only way you'll be happy is by stopping and getting to know who you are and what you want out of life and relationships. It seems that thats why your relationships are so manic because you need to spend some alone time with you or you'll probably keep having the same problems. If you want to talk further message me, good luck hun,
chanel