Drinking
I ASK MYSELF WHEN DID IT BECOME A PROBLEM,WHEN I WAS YOUNG I LIVED AN UP AND DOWN LIFE AT HOME, DID NOT GET ON WITH MY MUM,GOT ON WITH DAD.MY DAD USE TO GO OUT TO THE PUB AT THE WEEKENDS,MUM USE TO STAY IN WITH A BOTTLE OF SHERRY, SHE USE TO GIVE ME SOME.AS TIME WENT ON I LIVED MY AUNTIE, AND MY DADS PARENTS, THAT WAS A HAPPY TIME.I MOVED BACK HOME BUT THE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY MUM GOT WORST SO I LEFT HOME AT 15 AND LIVED ALONE. AT THA POINT I DID NOT DRINK EVERY NIGHT BUT WHEN I DID I DRANK ALOT, VODKA NEAT,ENDED UP IN HOSPITAL A FEW TIMES.THEN I MARRIED YOUNG 19 AGAIN I DONT REMEMBER DRINKING EVERYNIGHT BUT WHEN I DID IT WAS A LOT IN ONE NIGHT.THINGS WENT BAD MY HUSBAND WAS COUGHT SLEEPING WITH MY MUM THE NIGHT MY DAUGHTER WAS BORN, THAT WAS DRINK RELATED ON THEIR PART.AFTER THAT IT WAS NOT AN EASY MARRAGE LIFE WENT ON HAD 2 MORE CHILDREN.THEN AS TIME WENT ON I STARTED DRINKING EVERY NIGHT,1 BOTTLE A NIGHT OF WINE, THEN 2 SOMETIMES 3,THEN I STARTED MIXING DRINKS.THEN I SPLIT WITH HUSBAND , STAYED SINGLE, WORKING,DRINKING,JUST A DRINK TO RELAX AFTER WORK.THEN I MET MY BOYFRIEND, DRINKING AT ITS WORST,DID NOT WANT HIM TO KNOW ABOUT SIDE OF ME,HE FOUND OUT THOUGH. I LIED TO HIM TOLD HIM ON THE PHONE I WAS NOT DRUNK, I WAS.WE STARTED LIVING TOGETHER HE HELPED ME STOP DRINKING.IT WAS HARD AT FIRST I WOULD MAKE EXCUSES TO DRINK.I HAVE BEEN CLEAR NOW FOR 4 MONTHS.I LIKE A GLASS OF WINE BUT FIND IT HARD TO CONTROL THE AMOUNT.WHEN I WAS TRYING TO STOP MY DRINKS WOULD BE CONTROLED BY BOYFRIEND, I WOULD POUR VODKA OR WHISKEY IN THE WINE.WHEN NO ONE WAS LOOKING.THERES BEEN LOTS OF TIMES I HAVE PASSED OUT THROUGH DRINK............IAM SCARED NOW I WONDER IF THE DRINK THING IS STILL IN ME WAITING TO STRIKE AGAIN.I HAD SOME WINE ON MY BIRTHDAY BUT I WASNOT BOTHERED ABOUT IT....DRINKING CAUSED ME TO HAVE A BLOOD CLOT, WHICH TRAVELED TO THE RIGHT LUNG.I WAS 35 AT THE TIME.....MY LIFE IS MORE SETTLED NOW I HAVE MY CHILDREN 18,13,12,I HAVE PASSED MY DRIVING TEST,HAVE A CAR,IAM SELF EMPLOYED STILL.7 YEARS..I HAVE A GREAT BOYFRIEND,I WANT TO THANK, LOVE HIM SO MUCH,...........
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