Well hi! 
Hi. I triend sending a private message but kept getting "page error"
Yeah. When I was ten, and I first moved from the States to Belgium I was miserable. Culture shock. You have to get used to new customs, habits, cultural points of view. What's accepted, what's not. Strangley enough, when I found out we were moving back to the States, I was adiment to stay behind and move in with my Aunt, or Grandma. But, I realized that my tiny family is more important than my selfish wishes. All seven years I lived there I was bullied for being an American. I was even bullied by some teachers. (they really HATE Americans) The 5th year I was living there I started going to a performing arts high school. Finally I started making friends. Also, I had my first boyfriend. (He turned out to be a total control freak and started sexually and emotionally abusing me. Very soon I was scared of him. But that's beside the point.) That was another factor that made moving away VERY tempting. It still wasn't easy though. It did help me realize who my real friends were. I only had three people write me after I moved. (None of those my ex. He had a new girl in a month! We were together for 7...) LOL. Do you also sense my hostility towards him?  I know it seems really hard now. And it will take time. I know it doesn't seem like much of a comfort. If you start up some hobbies that YOU enjoy (don't start some because people you want to get to know better do it.) you will meet new people that you have something in common with. All seven years I lived in Belgium I went to art classes every friday night from 5 to 9. (except during the summer) And I played tennis. Looking back now I realize how much that helped me. I vented and expressed myself through my art and met interesting new people. Maybe you don't like art, but you have always wanted to learn how to play guitar. Do it. You could even start writing your own songs and vent through that. It's self-help. But it works. Maybe you're a sporty person. Hitting that tennis ball felt SO good. I also started taking drama lessons. From there I went into the performing arts school. Now I am in Advanced Drama in my new school and Monday I am performing in the South Eastern Drama Competition. Even now, when I am upset, I reach for my pastels, my writing pen, or my tennis racket. Moving helped me shape my personality, and made me a very strong person. I love the woman I am today.  Do you know what I mean? I certainly hope that helps some. And if you ever need to talk. I'm here.
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