anting to b skinny!

I am only 17 and people always comment on how much of a perfect body i have. size 8, big boobs, tight bum, nice tan, pretty face ect. i attract lots of men and i used to love my body. about 6 months ago i started to watch what i ate and now its got to b an obsession that i record what i eat and every intake. its now become my life and sometimes i will put myslef off eating at all. sometimes i feel im jsut not prety enough because my boyfriends always interested in other girls. people tell me he doesnt appriciate me enough, and my mates started to notice me losing weight and said ive lost the greatness to my body, although i still hate myself i used to get lots of attention before my weight become a problem.
now ive lost all my self confidnce to wear anything ive got stressed and i wont even go out anymore.
im confused to why im doing this, so paronoid my boyfriends going to leave me as im not good enough for him, even though he says he loves me.

What are you doing?

you know what you should do? well i think that you should have some 'me' time. you need to get focused on yourself. and yes your friends are right if you get too skinny then you dont look attractive to men because they like curves, they dont want their women to look like a man do they. if you want to get all the attention again then you need to eat well and put some weight on, give hime the female body that men are naturally attracted to. you are feeling bad about yourself inside and lack confidence? this is a very commen thought for women of today, you are not 'mad' just a victim of todays pressure to be the perfect women. give yourself a break, you are a pretty sexy lady who has lost her way a little, we have all done that! maybe you should be on your own for a while, time to put weight on, to heal, to be you, love yourself again, go on you know you are really worth it... julie