Society has got me down
well here's the deal, I was raised in a religious household, taught to respect everyone. i went through highschool with one serious relationship in which i lost my virginity which was a big deal so I was crushed when i got dumped. well 4 years later i haven't had sex again because i value it and think it's something sacred for people who love eachother, now every woman that I meet has had a butt load of partners and it bugs the heck out of me. I am terribly insecure about my body so it's really no wonder but even with that aside I think i still would want my prospective partner to have the same respect for me that i'm going to give to her and that is not sleeping around with half of the state before i find her. Anyway this has really got me down n it just feels like there really are no girls out there who feel this way. And quite frankly it makes me just hate life because it seems nobody has any sort of sexual morals, it's a doggiestyle society and their not afraid to bark about it. Then religion comes into play and my questioning of that. What if there is nothing when you die, then that means our purpose in life is just to screw like animals and again it makes me hate the drive for sexual intimacy even more. Thanks for listening and please tell me i'm wrong cuz on campus and living around a small town I ohnestly don't ever witness anyting contrary.
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