Ready to go
Have been in hospital for what seams like ages, (medicial not mental) Lost another preg, started having checks done as have got to have histeroctomy, and I have advanced chrons, and some tumors, have now come home but will be going back next month have several day patient appointments booked, (have very bed mental health probs and was getting even worse in hospital because of them)
The thing is, I have been thinking about ending it all for a while now, and when they said I could come home I started to sort everything out, I have decided to fnish everything off soon, I have everything sorted out and hubby knows that I am bad still but not how much. The only things stopping me is hubby and cat, but I can not go on much more.
What do I do? go on suffering so as not to hurt hubby and cat, or do what I have wanted for sometime and go? I love hubby and would hate to make him suffer, but I think I am by living anyway.
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