Feeling so low again
Hi
2 years ago I took an overdose but my fiance found me in time. Since then I have suffered from bouts of depression but I try not to show it too much. I am on Citalopram 40mg and have been for over a year now (came off them for few months after the overdose but had to go back on). I'm stuck at home at the moment with a viral infection. went back to work yesterday but couldn't stop coughing fits so went back to Dr and have got Tracheitis so have been signed off again. I am really good when I'm off, transfer my phone to my mobile, bring work home, check emails constantly. I brought loads of work home to do yesterday and contacted my boss after being signed off to see if they could put it down as working from home as I brought lots home with me. He checked and the boss's answer is no but I can work from home if it helps to pass the time! I am so fed up of trying my hardest to be contienscious and a good employee but I get nothing back from them. I'm terrified I'll be sacked for being off sick and I think after being ill for 3 weeks, I'm just at the end of my tether. I'm getting married in 3 months time and can't get excited abot it. I've been thinking about suicide again as I haven't got anything apart from my fiancee and our puppy. I don't really have any friends and my best friend stopped talking to me a year ago and I have no idea why. Old friends I have contacted through Facebook for some reason are not replying to me anymore and I really don't know why. I'm worried my best friend has concocted some story as to the reason she doesn't speak to me and told everyone. I am 32 and don't expect to have to deal with this anymore. I have tried to find out why she is ignoring me but she doesn't reply to my emails. She's moved and i don't know where she lives. I feel so isolaated and desperate I don't know what to do. Any advice will be helpful, please help.
Jo
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