I know what you mean...
About the care system. I had a concealed placenta abruption and it was touch and go for both of us, so am under the consultant. I had to wait 2 hours to see her and you could tell she hadn't even read my notes, it was a total waste of time. I have never seen the same MW twice. One told me i am a ticking time bomb as i get bigger and quite negative about what kind of birth i should have, one was really positive and was wasn't bothered.... The consultant said if my placenta moves up then everything will be ok with this one, if it happens it happens, they don't know why and it doesn't mean it will happen again (this is conflicting to what others told me) I will just see what happens..... But like you will be bricking myself! If i stop and think what could happen i really panic. It happened in my sleep, i thought my waters broke but it was blood. I am on my own all next weekend and am sooooo nervous. If i had been on my own when it happened we both wouldn't be here... i was in theatre for 3 hours, ex was told they didn't know if i'd survive and i was not allowed visitors after as they said the shock could kill me. The only solace i take is that i bled on and off from 19 weeks with that one, no bleeding with this one. Think i may be a bit mad having another.....
I am scared about stillborn too, i think we all fear that.
Lets be positive and get excited.....!!!!!
Take care, everything will be ok, stay positive!!
Good luck!
amanda xx
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