Got my bloods back.....

hey everyone

What a day

Ok so last weel i posted as i had my bloods sent off for glucose and iron levels plus urine sample also.

Well my glucose is fine no problem there which im thrilled bout as most people i know failed the one hour test, so yay no 3 hr test for me

Iron level came back at 11.4 which mw said was fine although i started pregnancy at 13.0 , so she said if i want i can continue taking the iron tablets, but i duno if i will or not, may just finish the packet and then decide.

Urine came back as having a urine infection So mw was going to call my GP after speaking to me so that i can go there tomorrow and get antibiotics. Didnt really want to take them during preghnancy but i guess if its best for me and bubs then i should.

Also went to see the antenatal psychiatrist today and we talked about everything and she deff wants to refer me to someone higher up as i deff have depression symptons and especially anxiety. So at least they can see that my fear of birth is genuine and not some petty thing.

After i went shopping as i need something to wear for a baptism and dear lord i feel and look like a whale its so depressing i just wanted to cry right there and thn in marks and spencers and got teary eyed. Feel so depressed over how huge i look, just dont want to leave the house until bub is due Plus found my first stretch mark on my side its small but makes me depressed as im already a size 14/16


Hate to say it but just want baby out so this labour thing is just over and done with and i dont look like mr blobby

Emmy & 28 wk pink bump

Hey

Glad everything went well...... as for you feeling like a whale, im almost 29 weeks and iv put on 2 stone already, and theres still alot of time to go so god knows what im going to look like... I too feel really unatracted and huge at the moment..... so your not alone.

love sue 28+5 blue bump x

Hey hun

Yeah i guess most women feel unattractive during pregnancy , i envy those that enjoyed their huge bumps. I dont think i will be one of those women that misses there bump once bubs is out. My hubby is already talking about planning for number 2, i very much thats gonna happen and if it does its gonna be YEARS away from now.

As i said to sammie i havent actually put much weight on its just because i was quite curvy to begin with , big boobs and big round bum that having an equally big bump just makes me look like ive been inflated and nothing looks good on :/

Hope you and bubs are well and im sure you look lovely

Ah hun.... glad that all your tests went ok - def best to take antibiotics they will give you the ones that are safe to take in pregnancy so dont worry... i would say keep taking the iron tablets until you dont feel tired i was anemic a little while ago and had some prescribed and i feel better now but im trying to eat more foods with iron in to keep them up

Thats really good that your MW sent you to see an antenatal psychiatrist it was something that i said i would get after losing Mya to help with this pregnancy although the help has been sh*t so its great that you are getting the support you need - its always best to talk about your fears and being scared of birth is not petty its really normal - the world wouldnt run without birth, im actually really looking forward to my labour this time round i think it was an amazing experience.. Are you scared of the pain or just the situation - having a baby?

Try not to worry about your weight its the one time in a girls life that you have an excuse to put on weight i've gone from a very slim 8 to a 14/16 i look terrible but you need to remember theres more important things in life to worry about than being a little tubby when pregnant its expected and your making a life so try to enjoy scoffing and not having to worry and then deal with it when baby is here safe and sound.. luckily i havent got any marks on my belly but i have loads and loads on my sides and bum from Mya and i love them as they remind me of her and what i lost i get to carry them every where i go.

Sorry if i seem to try to justify everything your feeling just trying to give you more positive outlook to pregnancy - although im one to talk about depression lol im up to my eyeballs in it....

I really hope you feel better soon babe the councelling should help and when that little baby of yours is in the world you should def feel better you wont believe how proud you can feel when you hold him/her and know you did that...

Remember you can always talk on here how you feel...

Love Sammie x Mya Angel x bump 38+5 x

Hey sammie

Thank you for replying hun, although im not that active on her as such with posts i have followed yours and when i hadnt seen any posts from you in the last few days i actually wondered if you had gone into labour. I know you have had a hard time and from your post today still are but you are seriously a lovely person that has alot of strength which i admire.

In regards to the counselling although i went today i cant see it helping me with how scared i am about the pain or with how scared i am to give birth during xmas, i would rather be induced, the thought of hospital at christmas or new years scares me, its just part of my anxiety and paranoia

Fear wise, im scared of the pain, scared of not being able to deal wiht it, scared of EVERYTHING to do with labour. The only positive i can see is when im allowed home with the baby. I worry about baby being still born, about me dying during childbirth.I know its horrible but if it was up to me i would rather just be knocked out and have baby taken out.

About the weight thing, i actually havent put on weight as such its just the bump and since i already have big boobs and a big bum then having a big belly i just feel so unattractive and trying on things today was a nightmare. I know that i must sound so vain but ive always suffered from low self esteam so this isnt helping.

Thanks again for replying.