Emotional wreck..need to vent - sorry
I'm 9 weeks pregnant and feel like an emotional wreck. Yesterday I had a formal meeting at work, then I was confronted by a few girls in the office about the things that I had supposedly said, to be honest, most of it was bull, but it was like, because i'm the "new" girl, they are going to take the other persons word over mine. I told them straight out that if I had said whatever it was, then I would just say I had said it, but I havent and I'm not going to admit to something I havent done.
Then there was an atmosphere in the office and there will be for a while. The girl, we'll call her A, we used to be dead close when I first started, then all of a sudden, she started spreading malicious lies about me and stirring up trouble between me and the other girls, said I was homophobic (quite the opposite as my son's godfather is GAY), said not to talk to others because they will stab you in the the back, and a load of other crap! I have no idea why A has suddenly started causing trouble. The only reason I can guess is because maybe she's jealous that I'm pregnant and she's been TTC for a while but to no avail.
I used to like going to work but now I am absolutely dreading it. I really dont want to get upset or get stressed out for the sake of bean, but with all the hormones, I really cant help it. Like, it's emotionally draining to go into work and listen to "she said, he said" and then them coming up to me ranting and raving about the things I had supposedly said! I really cant deal with all the sh*t!
Then there is the OH who is super busy with work and I dont blame him what with a baby on the way and kids arent cheap, but I see him like once a week. (we dont live together). He comes to mine when he can, straight from work and leaves in the morning to go straight to work. We hardly spend any time together at all. (He's a foreman & works on all the banks, universities, etc).
I think its all getting on top of me, to the point where I would literally drop everything and move away. Get a new job and just start again...Sorry for the long rant, I just needed to let it out!
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