im having one of those days, where im just blerugh.
im thinking about my boyfriend alot and its making me want to cry. for someone i love so much im hurting him so much more; he doesnt want a baby and i know he doesnt- im seriously considering moving away. i dont want to hurt him, ut then when my baby kicks i just think- how could i let him miss out on this?
hes not doing too well in his exams and his coursework, so im staying away even though all i want to do is go to him. i dont know if i should stay away for a long while and then break the news of the baby too him. sometimes i dont even want too. i know w;re goingto split up and even though i have other responsibilities its really hurting me to know we wont be together, i know i have to give him the opportunity to walk away and knowing him he will. i dont even know why i feel for him like i do, when im not with him i want to be, and when i am theres nothing anyone can do to get me away.
the only people who knwo about me and baby are people on here and my midwife- i dont want to tell family etc. before i tell him- if i tell them a ball will start to roll veryy quickly.
at the same time i think he suspects and hes waiting for me to say- he senjoying himself until i say. we're still getting on great though... i know fairytales arent real- its so sad they arent.
im just feeling really lonely and i want to just ring him cry and say it all- but he has exams early january so i cant.. and a boxing match mid january- and if anyone beat him id be really gutted.
sorry just being miserable right now
amie

hi hun, being pregnant is a massive thing...one of the biggest things that you're ever going to go through in your life, you really shouldn't be doing it alone, i know it sounds a bit harsh but exams can be taken again, you only get one chance with your baby, think about yourself for a while hun, ok so your boyfriend has the stress of exams but being pregnant is much harder. this forum is fab with some lovely people but you're quite far gone now and need support from family and friends otherwise you're going to get yourself down.i would just get it over with and tell him, you never know he might not be so unhappy about it, and if he is then thats his decision to make for himself. get talking to people though hun dont bottle it up.
sending a great big hug, take care
x x x x

i really just wnt to call him or go to him and just tell him, i want him to take some responsiblity too, even though its not his fault- injection:| got mine late had a test it was negative had my other injection- knew from about mid september something wasnt right and ive covered it up ever since. i only want to tell him right now because im mad for no reason though:@ i just want someone to come hug me lol and definately not my mum to be that person. im so sad, theres only one person i want and hes just not mature enough for this.
if i feel the same in the next few days i'll tell him xx

Hey, im so sorry you are going through this at the moment, and it must be really hard having no one to talk too. can i ask how far gone are you??

Im sure if you told him he may react different. I am only 20 and i had only been with my boyfriend a few months when i found out, and i though he was going to react like this, but he is completely different. I think once the shock has sunk in, and it becomes real he may be ok.

At the end of the day, if you say you are going to break up anyway why not tell him? you have nothing to loose really. Plus he does have a right to know he is going to be a father. You just never know how men will react and he is missing out on all the great things in your pregnancy, im sure once he feels the first kick or sees your gorgeous little bundle for the first time, he will fall in love with it.

Pregnancy is really scary and i cant imagine how it must be dealing with it alone. Do you not have a close friend or brother or sister you could talk too? or even your mum?

If you need to talk babe just PM me anytime

take care

kate 17+5 xxx

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hey lol,
im 17+4 weeks, yeh we probably wil split but i stil dont want to be the reason he ends up failing an exam; babies still going to be here when hes taken them lol; dont you just hate playing fair!
well we've been together a year and a half ( nearly 2 really) but hes already said " you better not be pregnant" soo.. ive got a feeling he knwos- hes also said " i know youve got an inkling of something but yo udont want to say until after xmas, tell me now" and ive laughed both off.
im probably doing this all to myself, i have close friends but we're all in the same circle of friends so i dont want to put them in that position you know? i would talk to my mum but shes not a fan of mixed relasionships - or black people in general.. ive had the " havey ou no respect for youself... you want to be black... why do you choose him" lectures- i think she blames the bad weather on him too so i cant really speak to her because she wont respect my wishes it will be all about her. i dont live with her anyway it got a bit much for me lol.
i wil tell him, i had a big plan yesterday to ring him in the morning of my 20 week scan and say to meet at the hospital but thats sounding a bit silly written down, i'll probably just blurt it out like most women do.
hey i just noticed your one day more pregnant then me! lol sorry how are you coping?
amie x

Why are you so sure your split up hun? are you not getting on well? To be honest there is never a right time to tell him, something will always crop up. Besides he will probably guess soon anyway as your start to show.

It doesnt help you have the same set of friends!!! and i guess your mum doesnt help. You have been with him a while now surely she would have seen your in love with him and she has had time to get used to the idea? She will have to like it at the end of the day if she wants to see her grandchild!

Maybe tell him before the scan so he has the option to come with you and see your baby. My boyfriend cried at our first scan! hahaha! i had never seen him cry before! lol!
It might help him get used to the idea if he can see your baby.

Are you going to find out the sex? when is your next scan? mine is the 22nd Jan...i cant wait!

Im starting to show a bit now and feeling the baby wriggle loads wich is amazing! you?

kate x

i not sure about anything anymore, i dont think he would want to be with me- he wouldnt leave a child hes not a horrible person but hes not ready at all.
i dont want to tell her before him because they dont get along and it might hurt him that bit more ( hurt= ... him off) that bit more if he thinks hes been spoken about as you can imagine hes not their biggest fan either.
i was thinking of telling himo n the day... maybe i shuld tell him the day before giveh im time to work out if he wants to be there- but not enough time to come find me and kill me lol- hes not vio;ent but i dont fancy a big massive row- not in person anyway i cant deal with that sort of thing right now.
we never have sex anymore- we dont have or find the time, and i need to start my full time job again soon so maybe its best i end it because hes just going to think we;re crap as a couple anyway so then we wont be together once he finds out? oh im just really confused. i know we'll make it work as parents but not as a couple its quite sad.
i bet kierons the type to cry at a scan, hes not a bad bloke and ive been there when hes cried but i know how proud he is so i didnt look at him just comforted him.
yeah if babies not shy! mines on the 22nd aswell! im finding it a bit hard to look forward too, what with this lol, same i think im starting to show a tiny bit but only because im so aware of it! im feeling movements its really good- theyre a reality check if nothing else!

sorry to ramble, are you pointing towards a boy or a girl? i think miens a girl...
amie xx

I no how you feel, with all the hormones, its hard to think straight!!! haha!

Mayb you should tell him a few days before as i think a day before wont be long enough to get over the shock!!! haha! You do have to tell him though as this isnt going to go away and the longer you leave it, the harder it will be!!!!!

He doesnt sound like a horrible person and im sure he will stand by you, sometimes relationships go through a stage where you argue a lot or you stop having sex etc, its all normal.

Wow thats great! wat time is yours? mines at 4! I have no idea, at first i thought it might be a boy now i rekon a girl. but i have no idea!!!

xx

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another bout of silly tears
i have nothing to do over new year. im probably not going to see stupid kieron; because hes going to be stupid clubbing and hes stupid.
i hate it when they dont say bye properly on the phone. w@nkers.

mines at 11:15.. mines going to be a girl because absolutely every old wives tale says it is lol

depressed now xx

Hey
Ive just PM you.
Take care.xx