I have just read about someone who has exactly the same feelings as me. I have polycystic ovaries and have been trying for a family for over 4 years now. I wanted to do it the 'right way' by making sure I was married first as I am an old fashioned kinda girl but yet to no avail!
I am the only person out of my 24 friends who do not have any children and is not pregnant. I thought I could handle it but have since found that my best friend is pregnant and I am having trouble coping with it. I am happy for her so I am also so insanely jelous that I could cry just looking at her every growing bump! I would never tell her that but it's really difficult to cope with.
Some day sI am ok and quite up beat about it all and other days I can hardly lift my head off the pillow for fear of balling my eyes out at everyone!

Lots of young unmarried school kids in my area have kids as easy as shelling peas, life is so unfair.

I don't really know why i'm writng this. Just having a really down day, and to top it off one of my oldest friends just called me and cheerfully told me she's pregnant.
How many times am I expected to pretend that im pleased for yet ANOTHER person who's pregnant? I've tried and tried and tried to fall, and nothing happens.
My friend is overweight, smokes like its going out of fashion, and doesnt have a job. Where's the justice in that? How comes she can fall pregnant with out even trying and here i am taking fertility drugs, daily looking for tips on how to concieve faster, taking folic acid, not smoking, I lose 2 1/2 stone in weight, and my calendar looks like its been scribbled all over from all the charts and plans ive been writing on it.
THIS IS SO unfair.............
I cant help sounding like im jelous. I am, im so jelous and now I can't stop crying.
This is awful.
I just wanted someone to read my feelings. Sorry this is depressing for you all.

My partner un expectidly became pregnant 7 years ago after miscarrage at 24 weeks she was diagnosed with PCOS that was 2001 since then we have tried and tried whilst family and friends where spitting children out and yes even those who should never be allowed children.

It is totally disheartening and trying to hide your feelings whilst trying not to upset anyone is hard very hard

In the last 7 years there have been 11 babies born in our family whilst for us there was nothing except tests and medication.

All I can say is never give up trying my girl friend was told she had sever PCOS and after I was tested I was told 98% sperm mortality and of the remaining live 2% only 5% of them where mobile enough.

Last friday after 7 years of trying we found out she is pregnant. I know you dont really want to here that but it just demonstrates that dispite what doctors say just keep trying we where resigned to not having a baby but beat all the odds,

Keep trying

"I feel the same "

like alot of forums im reading, it seems everybody but me is pregnant.
Iv known since i was 16 that i would have trouble concieving, but at 16 it wasnt something i was thinking about. I always knew deep down it was something i deeply craved, but wanted to wait until i was with the right person.

Im now with that man, my best friend announced in january she was pregnant, and although im pleased as punch for her -it took me 6months to see her because i was trying to hide my own pain at nothing happening.

i have had unprotected sex constantly with my ex partner and my current partner for 4 years and never fell pregnant - i have now consulted a doctor and once my next period arrives im having blood tests on day 19 after my period to see if im ovulating, so im not feeling so bad about things at the moment, im hoping in the next year my time will come - seek all the help you can, be referred to an infertility clinic, dont suffer in silence.

keep your chin up! xx

every time i have been told this year yet another of my friends/family are expecting i cry (alot), even though very happy for them, i have the same feelings as you. I have been with my partner for 7 years and had no joy, have kind of given up now. Whats frustrating is that people with no problems just dont seem to get how hard it is, has made me feel not womenly, if that makes since. Ive never writen into one of these sites before, but now i think its good to, because you're talking to women that understand and it is hard, harder then most people imagine. I was told i have POCS when i was 20, even though i expected it, it still felt very unfair, but then i realised how many women are in the same position. The crying thing is hard, my partner rang me in work about 3 months ago to say a close family member was pregnant, i was uncontrolable, but luckily the girls in work understood how hard it had been. I hope things work out for you and its not depressing to listen at all, its just makes you realise how many of us there are. I know its hard to be strong, you have to let it out sometimes.

when i was 16 i realised i never had a period and got a tad bit worried, i visited my local gp to have some check ups. I was then sent to a private hospital for tests and scans they said i was fine, i was due to start them in a month or so. I waited 6months went back and demanded to have the tests done else where so i did. then the tests came back as i had pcos. They sent me a letter stated this 2 days after new years, the year before last and i was only worth 2 lines. I was devastated that i went through a stage of crying and not knowing then to be told im fine, then go back through it all again, it was unnessecary. I love kids and always will do i've always wanted one of my own but it doesnt seem to be an option. i try speaking to my family and my mum they tell me im stupid, deal with it. I've been through alot in my life e.g. my mums bf was violent towards her for 12 years and had alot of house raids, me and my other brothers where kicked out of our homes and mum was always leaving my elder brother to look after us and she'd disappear for a week at a time. I was depressed enough as it was but when i was told that i had pcos i broke down and had no one. It still scares me to this day that i wont be able to give my boy friend a child and make him a dad as he is 30 now. and i so want to be a mum, and it annoys me that my friends who dont deserve them and trat them like crap can have them. And people who dont want them and get rid of them waist the chance of being a mother where as i dont have that option. I buy pregancy tests all the time and fill myself with hope then it comes back negative and im miserable again. The only thing that keeps me sain is my nephews because the feel like the nearest thing to a kid ill ever get. I know ill be a good mum, i took care of my nephews for 4months when their mum didnt want them and my brother had to own up to his responsabilties. I'm 18 yrs of age and that may seem to young to worry about it, but i am and i want children and my doctor seems to keep pushing the issue aside and not even bothering with me. I get emotional every time a see a new born baby, or a kid saying mummy because i wish it was me. I have no one to talk to because no one knows what im going through my mum had 7 children and carnt relate and my dad says good i dont want you to have one any way. ive had unprotected sex for nearly a year in hope id get prgnant and i havn't. the pain of it all is getting me further and further down in the dumps and i carnt handle it.
thank you for reading, i better stop or ill be crying all day
thanku

It's not depressing at all i fill the same cry all the time my best mate is preggo keeps talking about abortion and now decides to keep it she chane smokes still drinks a bit and other stuff falls prego like nothing i take fertilty drugs i have pcos and i cry all the time when is it my time i love her to bits but im soooooooooo jealouse

im only 15 years old and i werent getin my periods so me mum took me to the doctors and i had all the test done n had u/s and it was finaly said that i had pcos. when i found out i was nearly cryin. i didnt no what it meant till all i heared was that it could mean i cant have kids. that day it felt like a part of me died. i have always wanted to be a mum and now i feel as thought that dream will never happen. i now say i dont want kids just because i think its to much pain in the long run. as i have been readin for so long about pcos. i could try n never fall n i always have a higher risk of m/c. so now i jus cry myself to sleep as itthe only way i can say how i really feel. no one understands as no one i know has pcos. i try and be strong for my mum and everyone thinks im handerling it really well. but thats coz i dont really tell them wat im thinkin. i just show what im feelin to myself in my room at night.

Hi ladyg110,
As I was reading your email alot of the feelings you say you are feeling I have too.
I have found out in the past two weeks that my sister-in-law is expecting her second child, my lodger has now announced she's pregnant and the latest my 23 year old niece (who doesn't even have a steady boyfriend) is also pregnant.
Needless to say the last two weeks have been s**t!!
I have now told my lodger she needs to move out and have told my husband that I cannot see his family anymore as they will relish in the idea of 'rubbing my nose in it' about my sister-in-laws pregnancy.
I have such horrible, strong, negative feelings towards people when I find out that they are pregnant. I have friends who in the past have told me that they are pregnant and my way of dealing with that is to stop seeing them and thats what I do. (Technical this is wrong and I'm not in anyway suggesting thats what you should do and I know this isn't a healthy approach to the problem but I have to do whats right for me)
I'm feeling so depressed now that the idea of trying to lose weight is beyond me.
I'm back on Antidepressants which I came off of in January and just don't feel that I'll ever be happy.
Draw strength from the fact that your not alone in your feelings and thoughts and
that even if people around you don't seem to understand we do.
Take care and keep in touch.
Pippi

ahh, hi i just had to join this site as i needed to reply to your note. I was searching for how to concieve a girl ????? ended up reading ur post and neded to say there is hope out there............

I too have pcos and tryed for ages to get pregnant, I had a miscarridge just before i was suppose to start fertility treatment and with all the stress i decided it was effecting our health so to give it all a rest from the appointments and talking and medication....... e.c.t....e.c.t.
few months down the road i was pregnant, no fertility treatment or drs or anything. then 4 yrs later thinking it would take yrs for no 2 we prepared ourselfs for a long wait but in a few months preg with no2 !!
I know its the worst thing to say when its all you want but i truely believe it only happened to us when we stopped trying......i know ur thinking what the hell do i know i got my babys, but its the anger and rage and jelousy and desperation that makes us anxious and depressed and sad and crying.im readig your feelings and i just want you to feel hope and peace and happiness, it will happen........u have prob read it but just in case u havent. pcos and ur fertility by colette harris and theresa cheung, great book. ur very welcome to borrow mine, no probs will send with sum reiki if u like ? its a guide to self care , emotional wellbeing and medical support.
i felt so alone when i was going through this and would cry often, dont get angery for feeling jelous ur only human. I hope u feel a bit better and i have given u a glimmer of hope. good luck and seriously stop trying.sending love and light ur way xxxx

I have been blessed with a 2 year old myself, and have been trying again since he was 3 months old. NO LUCK. TO say that it is frusterating is an understatement. Especially considering that all of my friends are getting pregnant left and right. All you can do is pray about it, I guess. Is anyone else doing anything besides the typical prometrium, clomid, and glucophage combination?? I am dying to get pregnant again and will do just about anything. God bless all of you ladies. I understand how you feel!!!

I have just read about someone who has exactly the same feelings as me. I have polycystic ovaries and have been trying for a family for over 4 years now. I wanted to do it the 'right way' by making sure I was married first as I am an old fashioned kinda girl but yet to no avail!
I am the only person out of my 24 friends who do not have any children and is not pregnant. I thought I could handle it but have since found that my best friend is pregnant and I am having trouble coping with it. I am happy for her so I am also so insanely jelous that I could cry just looking at her every growing bump! I would never tell her that but it's really difficult to cope with.
Some day sI am ok and quite up beat about it all and other days I can hardly lift my head off the pillow for fear of balling my eyes out at everyone!

Lots of young unmarried school kids in my area have kids as easy as shelling peas, life is so unfair.

Hi there, just wanted to say i was 15 when i fell pregnant, 16 when i had my son, and i'm now 17. Yes i'm unmarried..But i'm still with the babies father, and am studying to be a nurse. I know what you mean by unfair thought, teens and adults! that get pregnant, and don't care properly for their children.

I Was told a few months ago, i have PCO..A blood test revealed it, although he didn't send me for an Ultra Sound, he said i have them.

I'm scared about never being unable to conceive again, but im blessed i have my son, and im very lucky.

Keep Trying, i've heard lots of miracle stories..hopefully one will become for you

Kezia x

i am in the same boat as you and have just been given progesterone and clomid i was told taking this would recterfy my period straight awway and hasnt as this is the ninth day of my period and it is really doing my head in i just want a baby thats all and to top it all off my sis has two beautiful children and as they are so young somtimes they get mixed up and call me mum and i get so upset at that i jus wish i could have a baby i know this wont make you feel better but maybe as i begin you can help me by telling me what fertility drugs you have been on as i would like to know more about you it sounds like we can maybe help eachother please write back. I am so sorry i can not help you as much as you want but hope me and you can help eachother in the best ways we can. Speak to you soon i hope and i hope you feel better than that day xx PS i bet also you feel that no one knos how you feel aswell i felt like that before i read your message so thankyou in a way i feel better knowing that you feel the same but do wish you never had to go through this as i would not wish this up on my worst enemy xxxxxx

Hi there, please don't for one minute think that you are alone in the way you feel. I am 24 years old, married for 3 years, just found out a month ago that I have PCOS and am stressing, crying, can't sleep, everyone around me is falling pregnant, accept me. Just feel like screaming. I know exactly how you feel.
Please let me know if you are on any medication, my doctor has out me on Metformin.

What about Clomid?? That is how I got pregnant the first time. I have been trying again for 2 years, but have not been lucky yet.

Hello! My name is janet and i am 22 years old. I have been engaged for 3 years, and as we were planning our wedding, I thought I was pregnant. so off to the Dr. I went, only to find out I wasnt pregnant (which at the time felt like a relief until....) but something was wrong. I went for an ultrasound and boom, I was told I had severe Poly-cystic Ovarian disease. I had no clue what that meant, except my dr. told me that there was a great chance I would never have children. I was so upset, my life was like a roller coaster, going from thinking your pregnant, to finding out, you probably would never have children was a huge Blow to me. I cried and cried ( i love children, always wanted 3, I work in a daycare, i work with special needs children.. I adore them). I got so depressed i stopped planning my wedding. My fiance' loves children and is 8 years older than me, so I thought if i couldnt give him a child, then he deserved better.... although that was totally not how he was thinking. so I went to a specialist to learn more. He told me that i was young and couldnt help me.... so I went to another dr. all I really wanted to know was more about this disease. Anyways, I met this wonderful Dr. who explained everything to me. He gave me a perscription for progestin (a hormone) to maybe make me get my period... my eggs werent dropping at all) and the next month, I got my period, which was a good sign. then he asked us if we wanted to try and have a baby, of courrse our answer was yes! So he gave me Chlomid... I got pregnant after being told I never would. I now have an 8 month old baby. (Still not married, but planning again)
I just wanted to share my story. I know I am young, but please if your in the same boat I was in... dont give up! Your turn will come!!!! I honestly think that worrying made things harder. Clear your mind, and have a positive attitude, and your baby will come!!!

i know i have only just joined but i just anted to let you know wa on metformin for 5 years and it didnt make a difference in me but maybe it will in you GOOD LUCK

I also have PCOS and we found out when I was 15. I gained a lot of weight and we could not stop it. I was a VERY active child and there was no reason for the weight. My whole family is very healthy and I was starting to feel like I did not fit in. My mother took me to the doctor because I was having pain cramps even when I was not bleeding. They did a U/S and found out I had PCOS not only did I have PCOS but It was VERY Bad. By the time I was 19 I have had 8 surgerys to remove cysts and D&Cs and everything else. I have to tell you, being so young and having doctors always working on your privates really can pull a kid down. Well, I was 23 and found out I was pregnant (I was not trying) the guy I was dating bolted and I did not care. After hearing doctors tell me for the past 8 years that It did not look like I would be able to get pregnant and I did. Well, I went to the doctor that had done all my surgerys and he was in shock he was like wow you are pregnant. Total shock. I even had to show my parents on paper so they would believe me. Well, about 5 - 6 weeks into it I had a M/C tottaly killed me. I did not know what to do with myself. Well, I then met my now husband a couple months after all this went on. We started dating and He told me that he had a vasectomy and I just kept telling myself well this one wont last and just hung around for the (tmi good sex) then fell in love. Well then we married i was so sad all i have ever wanted in life was to be a mother and now look I have 3 step kids that hate me and there mother does everything in her power to make them hate me and I will just have to deal with never being a mother. then after talking to my husband he desided I was so good with his kids that I should get to have one one my own. So we started weighing our options. Looked into the Vasectomy reversal we have a friend that had it done and now has a little boy and the looked into adoption and it was just not something we could do because of money. Well, we busted our butts for 2 years and on March 8.th 2007 my husband had a vasectomy reversal. Not only that he has live sperm and only had to have a VV on both sides. things are looking great I have myslef up to 2000mg a day of Glucophage (Metformin) and take my Prenatal vit everyday. Wish me luck. Also I believe there is a thing of trying to hard!

Wow, After reading all of these I dont feel so alone.... I am 24 and found out I had PCOS about 3 years ago, My husband and I over the last year were getting ready to have a baby so I started seeing a Fertility Specialist. I have been there for a year now and I am starting to get to the point where i feel nothing is working... I haven't ovulated, I cant get a period with our Progesterone injections or Pessaries.... I have been doing a lot of research and have been talking to people and they say that they took Clomid and Provera and with in 3 months they were pregnant....
Sometimes I feel so down about the hole thing, they say lose weight, I have but as soon as I have the hormones it comes back on again and I have to start all over... My husband and I are going travelling in April and was really hoping that while we were away being relaxed that something could happen and I could come back pregnant but my doctor on the weekend assured me that it wasn't going to happen. I just started to break down as soon as I got home, it is so hard and I haven't even being doing it all for that long...
Well i just wanted to let people know me and vent a little as well, if anyone has any advice that would be awesome.
Thanks Leishy

please stick with it, i have pos and went through taking all the tablets and diets, like they were going out of fashion.
every one was havng babies and not me i know how you feel.
then 3 years down the line as i had just given up i found out i was having a baby , who is now nearly 1 and i am thinking of going through it all again. it dose work.
take care.

im 19 had pcos since i was 17, i was on the depo injection for 2 years and put a lot of weight on thats why i ended up with pcos, i went to the doctors to see why i wasnt having my periods, they just kept saying loose weight, 2 years on still no periods so went back and they sent me for a scan, scan came bk i had pcos, so i was put on metformin 3 tablets a day, and told to loose at least 2 1/2 stone by may ,i have 2 more months to go before im bk up at hosp and ive already lost nearly 3 stone, ive been reading up alot about it etc...and most of the sucessful stories that i have read have been woman who have lost weight and been taking metformin,

so dont give up,just keep focused on your goal of conceiving, and im sure you will get there in the end xxxxxxxxxx