Feeling down.---its kind of offensive if taken personally, please no one do that.

I hate to throw this word around, because i think most people lie about, or because maybe ive never really experianced it, i guess i feel people who admit it ( and dont be peed at me anyone please) are attention seeking in some way. I know im out of order but, i want you to know how hard it is to actually say it to someone, i think i might be bit, depressed.
I dont feel any connection with this baby, none. I dont want to have this baby; thats how i feel right now.Theres a few things going off right now; i guess. we had a huge bust up with Kierons mum i didnt wana mention it cause any of you who remember me from my last pregnancy know how emotional and stupid i was, i was trying to steer clear of it this time. or at least let you lot think id grown up a bit! aparently not ay.
Moneys tight, but whos isnt?
Me and Kieron arnet at the top of our game at the minute, i feel right now like i should split with him, i think he deserves better, i treat him like crap. i always stress at him, always, and its never justified, ive sat here all night thinking what does he do, or what doesnt he do tht gets me so riled. And theres nothing its all me, he doesnt do anything wrong. I just feel so damned daft, and alone.
Everything thats gone wrong, has gone wrong because of me and i dont know how to make it better.
i dont even have the motivation to do so, i really dont. All i feel for this new baby to date is guilt. I was so determined for Kole, bless him poor little sod lol. But this baby makes me scared, and sad, and guilty. i know its not the baby who makes me feel that way, its just me. I dont know what to do. I feel like ive let myself and everyone else down. Oh i just have too much angst. And no let out for it.

Hey aimee

I'm glad that you have replied cos I've been worried about you hun. I sufered with ante-natal depression (depression during pregnancy) and I was really worried that I would end up with post natal depression. A couple of times I felt myslef feeling the way I did during my pregnancy and ,mananged to pull myself back. Please please call the doctor this morning and let me know how you get on hun

Love Nikki & Traivys xx

Hey

thank you so much; ive tried to talk to a couple of people and they think im a bit weird, ive got an appointment for tomorrow so i'll let you know how it goes. Do you have a facebook account?
i always liked your sons name btw, but im a lurker!
Thank you so much, hope your ok speak soon
love Amie x

Hey

now im blubbing, i think i do need to see someone, but i really dont want too. not at all, im really messed up i show kole too much love and everyone else in my life none.i think i'll go to the doctors.

i need to see someone in any case because i cant bloody sleep once i wake up at night anymore. I'm just moaning now and i feel like such a muppet i didnt know i was so sad. I'm sorry; i dont feel anything but guilty.

i think i'll call the doctors when day breaks lol, thanks everyone...considering im a total lurker people being nice to me makes me cry lol, i dont deserve it ! lol thanks everyone; your all brilliant.

Amie

I am in the same boat

My first baby is now 2 months old and I am struggling to connect with him. I honestly thought the baby and my husband of 10 weeks would be better off without me. I get stressed at my husband for stupid things.
I spoke to my HV and she put me in contact with the mental heaalth nurse and I am now on anti-depressants.
My birthday is coming up and a couple of weeks I told my husband I don't want a mum card, but now I feel a wee bit better towards the baby and would like a mum chain or ring.
I am taking this 1 thing at a time in the hope I will feel the way my OH feels toward the baby.

Karen and James Thomas 2 months and 2 days

Hello sweetie

Ahh bless you hunni you sound so sad. Please remember that you are not alone and there are many many mothers who experience these kind of feelings. WHatever you do babe dont suffer in silence there is no shame in admitting that you need a bit of help - we all do from time to time hun. God knows I've had my moments with Traivys where I've felt that I'm not a good enough mother and I'm doing it all wrong. Try to remember that there is a loght at the wnd of the tunnel and you will not feel like this forever and DONT BLAME YOURSELF BABE.

I agree with Adele - please apeak to your HV, Midwife or doctor - thats what they are there for hun. I'm sure if you sit down with Kieron and try to tell him how you are feeling and that you just need a bit of help right now, he will understand. DOnt make any decisons about your relationship while you are feeling like this wait until you can make rational decsions - just take your time hunni.

Above all hun we are all here for you too hun. If you ever need to talk you can always PM me and I'll try to help you if I can.

AM sending you a great big cyber hug and one for your kiddi winks too

Lots of Love Nikki & Traivys 19+4 weeks (I think lol) xxx

hey hun

You really need to talk to someone, your doctor or MW/HV. If you are found to be depressed you need to get some help before you get too bad. Its sad that you dont feel a connection to this baby, but its not healthy to feel this way.
I have lived with a depressive, so I know what its like, its hard and very emotional and you cant get better without professional help.
You say your too blame for everything, if you know what your doing try and make a conscious effort to change, you may find your OH will react differently to you then.
I think you need to start by talking to him, your family and a professional, get to the bottom of all this then you can start to try and enjoy life again.

Take Care hun
Adele xx