Feeling like a bad mum and a bit too faced

Since the weekend I have been feeling off, but now its really hitting full force, i can barely stay awake, something has happened to my leg, i cant walk properly, my head feels like its going to explode, i cant have my laptop screen very bright cos it feels like there is a lot of pressure behind my eyes and im freezing freezing cold, even when the house is roasting, last night i had electric blanket, fleece, dressing gown, and quilt and my jammies, hubby told me i was red hot and tried to get me to take some of it off but i point blank refused, and he knows better than to fight with me, i couldnt move cos i was that cold it hurt.

I had this about 2 weeks after my section but it wasnt this bad, im going docs tomoz but ive really struggled with megan today, and got to the point i couldnt cope, she is teething too so is clingy then doesnt want to be held then in pain, i also think she has a bug, ive had to change her nappy which was like water 5 times, doc said keep her fluids up and get calpol.
Havent been able to play on the playmat with her, we have watched cbeebies and read stories and sang some nursery rhymes but she hasnt been out the house, she seems happy enough but i feel bad.

I feel 2 faced cos ive called my mum and asked her to come round tomoz to take me to the docs and to have megan for a few hours, i havent had much contact with my mum since she told me she is going on holiday for megans 1st birthday, but now im using her for my convenience. i feel bad, but i feel so sorry for megan too.

No advice needed but my hubby has decided he is going to a computer fayre so has buggered off till god knows what time, havent been able to bath megan as i cant risk taking her upstairs with my leg and feeling dizzy so now she is sleeping downstairs on her sleeping bag instead of in bed.

wow, long post!
Sorry

Nat and Megan xx 2 poorly girlies xx

Thank you ladies

Well docs say it sounds viral but they want to scan me to see. Even though I had a section Megan was literally stuck as her elbow was bent and her hand over her eye just like in 4d scan so they just want to make sure everything is clear and also check my left ovary.

No advice apart from to stay attatched to the blanket, told her thats impossible with a teething 15 week old, but my mum had her so i could sleep for 2 hours, although i could of cried when the alarm went off.

Hubby has said sorry after a night of not talking for a bit, so tonight he is taking megan straight from when he gets in so i can go and have the hottest deepest bubbliest bath without having a baby in there too.

Thank you for all your messages, would be lost without you all

Nat and Megan xxx

Aww i hope the docs went well today, what did they say?

its horriable feeling ill with a little baby espically when they are teething aswell! try not to over do it and as for megan im sure she is happy enough to play on the mat by herself which will give u a rest

Rosie usally sleeps for morning nap, i put her in moses basket and she goes off a few mins later but today she has put up a fight, ive tried everything but it got to me as she just wouldnt calm down for over an hour! so i stuck vacuum on which stopped her from crying? lol then she was wide awake, got her milk ready she took half an once and she is completley out of it now in her bouncy chair -teeth again i think. Dont feel bad that u've put her on her sleeping bag and not in her bed because if a baby is tierd they will sleep anywhere!

Hope u 2 girlies are feeling much better soon

Lucy & Rosie xxx

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oh hun you sound really down... hope you are feeling better today......? i'm sure megan is fine and understands that mummy doesnt feel well and is doing her best............ i'm sure your mum will enjoy helping you out and you shouldn't feel two faced you're just doing what's best for your little girl and you...... take care of yourself hun xxxxxxxxxxxx danica and cadene xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi hun

oh poor you :S it is so horrible when you feel ill and even more so when you feel you can't take care of baby.

as to not being able to be on the floor with her - i couldn't get down to the floor until siri was about 4 months old because f my pelvis and tailbone etc - so i had her playmat on the sofa next to me, took the back cushions off and it fit just right. is that a possibility? i know how horrible it is feeling you can't do anything. but the most important thing for them is you loving them and as long as she knows that then all is good with her! and it doesn't matter where she sleeps - as long as she gets some

i know you don't want comments on your hubby... but.... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr rrrrrrrrrrrr.....

as to how you feel - i felt like that in the week after siri was born and ended up in surgery because of having stuff left in me, we caught it just before i became very, very ill from it. i was already in a wheelchair but felt so bad just being in that was a challenge - and had wool clothes (lots of those here in norway in the winter) and duvets and all sorts trying to stay warm. i really hope they do something to help you hun, it is awful feeling like that. wish i could come over and give you a hand with stuff!

let us know how it goes tomorrow
hugs
eliabeth & siri
xxxx

Hey hun

Im sorry your feeling so poorly, it sounds awful what your feeling like! Do you think its to with the section? Im still not right after mine!
I dont think your 2 faced, your well in your right to be ... off with her but she is your mum but thats what they are there for to help when you need it. Dont worry yourself hun, put all your efforts into getting better.
I hope you get on ok at the docs tomoro, let us know how you get on.

Take care hunnie
Adele xx


ps...Dont worry about Megan being on a sleeping bag, Archies always asleep on the couch!!

Me 2..

hiya,
i know how u feel. i am feelin ill 2 and i feel like the girls r put 2 one side.
i am on my tod 2nite 2 so havent really bothered with them, just fed n put them in bed. they dont seem phased but i am feelin low bout it all. its the 1st time i have been ill whilst havin them both. it is my oldest birthday wk 2 so i am feelin crap as it should b a nice week, not me moanin n feelin rubbish!
well hope u get well soon.
hope u get sorted soon n we r both better very soon.
take care, a grotty mummyand2. xx

Its so horrible isnt it
Megan doesnt seem phased by it, she still wants cuddles and sits on my knee and plays a little but im not putting the full amount of effort in.

Heres to a speedy recovery to us both,

Nat and Megan xxx